1st love. fa real.

This doesn't happen much, but I love it when it does. Ever had a flashback of something that happened to you when you were so young there is no reason you should remember now?

I hope so,... otherwise I'm alone in this.

I rememeber being thrown in the air by my uncle before I could walk. I remember my 4th birthday at Magnum Oaks Day Care, with varied details. I remember different days in Huntsville, TX when my parents were going to Sam.

Anyway, there is one memory that hit me today. Its from kindergarten, and I truly believe that it will stick with me till the day that I die.

The year had to be 1989 or 1990. I was sitting in my kindergarten (<<<----dumb word btw, wut iz that? German?! but I digress.)class on a multicolored bench that was attached to a small table, prolly made by Playskool or sumthin. This bench/desk was near the entrance to the classroom and was pushed up against the teacher's desk.

Now you ask, "Wuts so special about that?!"... well, this bench I speak of had just enough space for the butts of two 5 year old kids. This day, I had positioned myself at the desk by myself and I can remember that I was excited to be using "markers" in coloring wutever it was on my paper. I mean crayons were coo, but markers were d sh*@. Like, they were grown up colors.

ANYWAY, as I colored, a certain young lady accompanied me at the table, and sat close enough that we were TOUCHING (<<--- I actually whispered that), something that seems so big when your young. SK were her initials.

I loved SK....

She was a little pakistani girl that I would swear to myself looked just like Janet jackson.... and I loved her. I had loved SK ever since I laid eyes on her. She has to be the first girl that I was truly IN LOVE with. I remember not being able to look at her in class, or even speak, much less speak to HER when she was around. I mean boys were pretty rough with girls at this age, but I remember not being able to come around her at all... but this day she came and sat by me!

SK started the convo... ok, I dont remember the exact words spoken, but I do remember that we sat there and talked. We talked about my little bad ace brother at home, lunch, michael jackson, and colors..... most fulfilling conversation to date.

It gets blurry after that, but I had a crush on that girl all the way through elementary school.

She battled with a sex addiction, dropped out of high school and "started a family" early, since then, but DESPITE ALL that she still holds a special place in my heart..lol.

thought I would share..

dis aint her.. but eh. close maybe..